Tear before the rain

No single tear for You!

No more!

I've dryed out

You can do what ever You want!

That is Your right!

But i just dont want to see that!

I'm asking for this small respect.

Can I have that?

Those intimate moves-flirting, dancing, holding...

One kiss could just stab me to death at once.

Do that!

You will see blood in my eyes,

cause there is no tears anymore,

because I cryed a river.

Sunshine is drowned there.

I still hope to find my smile,

which i also lost yesterday

with this green envy

which kills my will

to feel or understand.

I know i'm lost

I know thats You

and You cannot change You

I dont want You to change

not for me

not for anyone

You can do that only for You.

And if You are happy like that,

great!

But have respect for those,

who feels "You are special".

In their special way

Even if You dont share the feeling.

I've never had those fights

I thought i'm not able to,

but i see i'm week

And cant close my eyes or mind

I cant stop my ticking heart

or it will explode.

...and i will lose myself again...